I want to mark today, somehow in some way. So I write. I write to share the journey I have been on and the journey I wish to continue. Today is exactly 6 months since I gave birth to my sweet darling Zakariah. And 6 months since I lost him too. It’s been 6 months – 182.5 days, 26 weeks and Half a Year. A whole chunk of my life has gone, somewhat in a daze and somewhat in a whirlwind of chaotic emotions. Anger, sadness, disappointment, gratitude, humbleness, and yes – even joy. 

The world has changed in the past 6 months. Babies have been born, bringing  joy and happiness to their parents, students have graduated from university, the unemployed have become employed,  vaccines have been discovered, wars have been waged, refugees have been in a flux of crisis, violence and terrorism has sporadically swept the globe. This is the world – some Good has happened and so has some Bad. This is how the world is changing. But my world, it’s a small one. The centre of it was, is and always will be Zakariah. Perhaps my focus may shift from time to time, with the daily grind of life. But this focus is not a negative one, it is one that gives me something to look forward to. I keep in my mind and heart a little boy that was not meant to be, and each day I live is a day to make him proud. Every small success in this life is a step closer to the ultimate success in the Hereafter – a step closer to seeing the proud smile of my son. In this 6 months, in all the chaos, pain and loss that was my life,  one beautiful and amazing success has taken shape. With good intentions, love, hope, faith and tender care we set up the Zakariah Maternity Centre in Neelam valley (Kashmir). This was a dream 6 months ago and now (Alhamdulilah) it is a REALITY.  This centre, named after my beloved son has been set up to give hope, faith and inspiration to the people of Neelam Valley. And every baby that is born there will be a reminder of a little baby who made all of this happen. 

I will continue to mark each milestones, each “anniversary” as it comes – not because I am sad or upset. I do so as a reminder of what I had, have and will have.

6 months today –  the moment you came into this world and left it, is a moment that is forever engraved in my heart and soul.  I will start tomorrow my dear son, the beginning of the next six months, with a renewed hope and faith. Because THAT is what your short life has taught me. 
To mark this day, I share with you the latest documentary of Zakariah Maternity Centre. My heartfelt gratitude and thanks to ALL of you who helped make this dream happen.

http://youtu.be/VaUlHZHgbRk
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